I'm feeling outta place. As happy as I am with myself, I sometimes think "What if?" There are things about my body that I wish I wasn't genetically born with. My size in particular. Like I said, as much as I am happy with myself, my curves, and my coke bottle frame...Sometimes I think if I was genetically made a smaller woman, things would be easier for me.
Yes, I said i
t. Easier. I feel like the women here in L.A have it made easier because they are smaller. I want to be able to eat a cheeseburger and not feel so bad about it. Because sometimes I do feel bad. I feel horrible afterwards and the next day I am hard on myself. I sometimes wish I wasn't genetically fat. If I was smaller maybe by now I'd have a husband or kids. My own place or at least dating more. I mostly stay in because of my insecurities. I hate the fact that clothes are more expensive for me and the only reason why they are more expensive is because my boobs cant fit into an extra large and my ass is bigger than most women's. I love my curves, but for once I wanna be able to shop all day and not spend $100 on just 5 items.I was looking through my friend's Myspace pictures and I felt my self-esteem drop. Shes tiny and beautiful. She's the girl who laughs with me and claims to be jealous of me. I have boobs and ass, I have curves she wants. Yeah right *rolls eyes* Does she not get how much I'd give up to look like her? To wear the small dresses and the high heels. The tight jeans and t-shirt without having to worry if my stomach looks bloated.
I'm having one of these, "I wish I was small" days.
I'm hungry.
7 Beautiful Thoughts:
You aint lying Stef! Thinner girls can spend $5 ona tank @ Forever 21 Lol But Whatevr @ least we have some curves =)
Wishes... hmm, if they came true what would that mean for us? If you were thinner what kind of person would be? Stuck up? Entitled? More grateful? The same?
I always wanted to be "bigger" but there ain't no way I'm ever gonna have "bulk". I'm always gonna have a basketball players bod. But I'm gonna have a very muscular basketball players bod by doing the best I can with what I've got.
I feel like this sometimes too .. But we're only human. We shouldnt complain about things we can change .. Lets do it Stef !
Steph...I definitely feel you...it sucks not having a B/C cup when you're looking for a swimsuit, it sucks not having a flat tummy to rock the belly shirts, it sucks not have a smaller butt to be to fit into jeans perfectly...but what can we do?!?
I'm hungry too =D
Girrrl this is me through and through!!! I hate the fact that i gotta shop in special shops where clothes cost double! it's a disgrace. Babes we just have to be strong, and set our goals..personally I love you the way you are but if u REALLY REALLY want to change then determination is key. I don't think you should though! It's funny because if you lived in the UK, you wouldnt be seen as big. were a bit more, realistic over here. the average UK woman is a size 12! So dont dispair, on days when you wish you were smaller, just eat a cake or some ice cream, that's what I do! I tell that side of me to STFU and that loadsa people would want big boobs and a big butt et, curves are most definately in!!!
I think as women we all have those days when we wish we were something/someone else. You know the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I always wonder what life would be like if I were smaller and taller. Would I be more attractive or would I be a mega-bitch??? Then I remember I'm beautiful just the way I am... I'm hungry as well :)
I know how you feel...
its funny how you can want to be like someone else meanwhile they are wanting to be like you. It happens.
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